it is my nature to obsess. (you should've known me when i was single and dating. yuck. how my friends put up with me, i'll never know.) anyway, i have a tendancy to obsess over anything and everything.

the scale is my most recent point of obsession. at the beginning of my new program, the weight came off relatively quickly, so i was on the scale every couple of days just to see if anything's changed. but now that the needle on the scale is slowing down (and/or not moving) i can't keep doing this to myself. so i guess i have to choose just one day a week, and leave the scale alone until that day. i'm afraid i'll make myself crazy otherwise!

i've also figured out that i'm not eating enough during the day. this either leaves me *way* under my calorie range at the end of the day, which i fear will send my body into starvation mode, or forces me to have a decently gluttonous meal at dinnertime, which isn't really healthy at all. i picked my mom's brain yesterday for some ideas. we decided that i needed more protein during the day, and a little more fat. she suggested, for starters, that my usual english muffin breakfast should include some protein. this morning, i had melted cheese over it. wow. it felt awfully decadent for "diet food". but man, was it good.

we're going to a birthday party for a friend tonight at a not-especially-healthy restaurant. this is where my obsessive nature comes in handy: i've already read the menu, studied the nutrition facts, decided on my entree, and recorded it in my food journal to make sure i have the calories for it. and all before my mid-morning snack.

ok, off to lunch. later i'll tell you about yesterday's bus-ride from hell.